Remember that post I wrote a couple days ago? Well, I think I might have expressed myself badly. I think I took it out of context and that I might have hurted some people.

I have an incredible family and they are in no way jugmental. They love me, no matter what size. What I was trying to say is that I felt that way. I felt like I didn't belong. I felt like all they saw was the fat me. I thought that too, for many years. I have no way to explain it. I have absolutely no way. Right now, I don't even understand how I feel.

I took down the post. I am questionning a lot of things these days. This blog. Myself. There is two parts of my writting. There is the thousands of people reading every day and there is family. And I am starting to understand how hard it is for them, to read this. To read how I felt. Maybe I should of told them instead, directly. Communication is not my greatest talent. I have to work on that.

Think of all your thoughts written on a blog. If they are read by strangers, not so bad. If they are read by family, it's a different story.

I love my family, I 100% do. No one is perfect and we are all self-conscious.

I guess I just don't know where to go from here.

Maybe I just hit a cross road.