Good morning!

Did you know that:

  • Today is Canada Day and I am in the United States, counting the days until July 4th. That makes me a BAD Canadian.
  • The scale is holding steady at 170-172 pounds. I tried to convince myself that it was water weight, muscles coming back, bloating, bla bla, but now I know that I've gained weight.
  • I've been good with the running but I really need to go running by myself, alone in the woods, at 6AM for it to be productive. I don't like to be seen. When there is people, I start going super fast because I guess my ego kicks in, and then two minutes later, I am dead. Fail.
  • My brother is pretty awesome. We have been hanging out a lot these days, I've missed him.
  • I am running out of inspiration and I don't know what to say or write these days. I don't want to talk about how I feel anymore, because it's not very good feelings (I am trying to fix that). I don't want to plague the blog with sad thoughts. It's not that I am sad. It's just I am constantly thinking about my weight & my body. Always kind of uncomfortable, feeling a fat roll there. I miss the simplicity of not caring, of weighing 161 pounds. At least, it's easy to get back there if I do what I got to do. Which is what I will do. Lot's of do here, do's than will turn into done's.
  • Counting calories is hard, kind of like a full-time job. You can't skip a beat, you have to keep up,  but it works my friends. It oh so works.
  • I am learning to handle real life with the diet. For three years now, I have been so focused on losing weight, from September to May and then I just forgot about it for the summer. That's 24 months of hard work ruined by 9 months of lazyness. I don't want this summer to be a failure. Not again.
  • Still have to do that post about fashion!
  • Now, time to start the day.